Yuying.

Well, school is alright. Many things happen lately. Okay, shall say it in short. I'm in Yuying Concert Band! It's awesome and it's damn fun! Trust me. :') I'm alright with my class, infact we got our class tee already :D Facing a really difficult obstacle now. It's this guy in sec 3. Long story lah, anyway I don't really wanna talk about it. It's hard to let him go, trust me, but no matter what I have to. Even if it takes for me to die, I'm willing. His in band too, hate seeing the smile on his face, hahaha, I don't know why but i just dislike it. I just don't know what about him that I can't let go of... I'm tired. I'm tired of the things I've been worrying of, caring for, don't you feel tired? I'm. How I wish I could stop everything now and take a good rest before starting everything again. I just can't cope my studies and cca. It's hard! Well, that's about that. (: Hopefully I have time to blog again!

Currently, 4th/5th week of sch.

What can i say? Hmm.. Not liking my sch days, derh. Only sometimes, I'm okay with it. But most of the time, I'm not! Boys in my class are horrible. They are noisy like everytime, some of their joker aren't even funny. -.- Unlike 6H la. Walao, i hate them (Most Of Them)

Now, I hate PE the most. Because I'm the PE rap, and it's really hard to control the class. Swear!! Only if my friends are like my primary school friends.. Really.):
I miss them, all of them. I wish i have one day, just one day, of being primary 6 again. And i can enjoy everything, everything again. What a wish!):
I can communicate with my class well!
Enjoy like every lesson, even music.
Having a memorable recess, with my besties.
Staying back and fool around with my awesome friends.

These times are really the best. The ones i want to live in forever and ever, even if I die. Hongwen, i miss you ):

New School, New Friends, New teachers..):

Well, I'm back with Ivan for like quite long ago. That's another long story so ya, lazy. :D

Back to the point, I'm now currently a Yuying Secondary School Student!! Awesome :) But the sad thing is, i don't get to see awesome friends and teachers for schools. ): Why cannot have Hongwen Secondary sia.. But i will definitely go back to Hongwen like for almost every event if can. Hehes. XD
Yuying is quite awesome. For like that first week, I'm like so hating school. But now it's quite okay. Having camp tmr. Haven complete Maths homework due date tmr!! ): Homework like crap lor. Geography like shit, hard to catch up. Maths also, teacher so fast teach... I have to take time to learn de leh. For cca, I'm going to choose either volleyball or guitar. Hahahas!! Awesomes Cca <3<3

Got to Go soon. Yeah, now. Kay Byess! Contiued stalking.
Till Next Time. <3

Break):

I'm Single, I still remember the day we break, the reaction he reacted, the feeling inside my heart. Well, its raining now. He told me he still love me but actually he loved me. He already losted feelings for me, and he didn't told me. He promise me that he would tell me, but perhaps he was keeping empty promises again and again.

How many times is he going to do this over and over again? If he see this, he might be asking himself "I didn't lied to her before." or "I didn't know she have been keeping this in her heart" Ivan, knowing this now is late, really late. It seem that you don't know me well. Its okay, i think its not really a need now. Since we aren't together anymore. Right?

Today, is our 2month anni (if we are still together), remember Ivan? No. I don't think you will be remembering it too. You always forget things i told you, important things. You never remember!

You always said that you would be texting me back later because something came up, but you didn't mean your words. You never, you would only text me back the next day. Is later that long!? I don't think so, you should tell me tmr text me back or something. If you don't, you know i would be there waiting foolishly, you don't know right? I would sit infront of my phone, see the time, asking myself "When is later?" "Is he going to reply?" Until, when I'm going to bed then i will realised that you didn't mean it. And i would be sad, utterly sad. Real sad. I would even think of cutting.

I hate texting you first, really. Can't you be more automatic? You cannot isit? That hard? I wonder how you pass your day? I wonder how many times you think about times we spend together. But now, maybe i don't need to think this things anymore...

Hope you would treat your next girlfriend more serious, and better then me. Its good bye now (even if i can't bear to leave you) Bye friend...

Till Next Time.

It just doesn't seem right. x.x

Everything is going wrong... Really really long, feelings for him start to lost. But it's still there just not as much as before. Anytime now he might just break with me or I break with him. It's been final that he is going to Outram and I'm going to Yuying. Not same school eh, surprised?

Currently no one knows about my blog, I think. Just hope people that knows about this doesn't spread everything. Been texting with Kango lately(:
I duuno why but when I text with him I feel different when I text with him. When I text with Kango, I feel like I have no worries all gone. But with Ivan I must get ready for anything bad coming because our relationship hasn't been steady these few days. I'm really lost really really lost. Soon, just soon we will break because there is no such thing as "Happily Ever After" fairytail and reality can't be mix. That's what i have learnt.

It's quite later I should be going to sleep already. I have to go to Yuying tmr. Goodnight(:

Till next time (:

Bigger Distance, Deeper Hurts.

Its been supa supa long since i have seen him. Its like we always have chances to meet up, but its either he cannot or i cannot. Is fate trying to tell me something? On my birthday, he didn't do anything special... (Everytime when i think about this its reminds me of Alex.) Last time, when I'm going overseas on my birthday Alex would still celebrate my birthday. But it was last time! But it seem like he didn't... He should know right?! He should celebrate it earlier or later mah. For Dionne's birthday, we all get to celebrate hers. Even Marcus was there to celebrate too, why can Marcus do it but not him? Isit because Marcus love Dionne more then Ivan love me!?

I want to know why? He was always there to say "We would last long even if we are going to different Sec School" And i would always agree at that time but now very hard for me to believe it anymore. Any day, just any day, we might break up. Is either me or him. It would happen. Or those shitty last long words doesn't even came true at all. So whats the point if you are getting people wishes like "Last long" their just words, its would never come true. All those mushy words that couples give to each other, are just there but for awhile only. Those words can't hold couples together. It can't.

I still miss him, i still do. But i can't always be the first one who always text him first. Always me start first then the one who would be going first is him. Whats this shit thing?! I don't want this kind of stupid relationship! He don't have to be perfect for me, really, but he have to also know that his girlfriend can't do everything.

Because of this few words that i want to say to him, i have lost mood in everything even texting him. Really don't want to do anything now. Everything i do now seem hopeless. It can't be helped, everytime i would regret being in a relationship. I even regret the one I'm in now. People always says "If your in a relationship and it affects your studies your stupid" Yeah. I'm stupid, but i don't blame him, okay maybe i do abit, but its also my fault sometimes.

Girls usually fall for those guys that are good looking, smarter, richer. Those girls are bitches. I don't want be like them and i would not.

Miss the experience of cutting... Its been long since i last cut too. Everytime when i thinks about the stuff that he disappoints me i would feel like doing it. I can, but i just don't have the time. Someday i would. And the day would be near.

Taiwan (:

Okay. Came back from Taiwan at like 11 Dec, now then blog... Sorry? Anyways, im lazy to blog about it okay, so ya, just think that i didn't went there or something. (: Anyway i think im going to change my blog link, i want to post something, and not let him know because he know my blog link now so im going to change. Keep stalking (: