Taiwan!!

I not sure whether i should be happy or sad. As i said before, 2 more days im going to Taiwan, yeah.

But should i be happy because,
I'm going with my whole family (include Uncles, Aunties, Cousin, Grandparents) and there would be shopping and fun.
Or should i be sad because,
I will badly miss my friends here at Singapore and Him...

I'm lost now, i really dunno. Maybe i will be sad at first later on i will get over with it and be happy? Maybe. Hai, will defiantly miss you guys... will blog after i come back.

P.S. I hate packing my things, but i have no choice XD

Class Outing!! :D

Omg! Finally, Class Outing arrived i thought this day would NEVER come. Hahaha! Im having coughing and slight fever, scared i cannot go. Seriously, what if i cannot, will be super sad): Mother, now at home la. Dunno whether she fucking allow anot.. Hope she will *Praying* 2 more days, Im going to taiwan he said he would miss me. But will he? I dunno.

Back to the point, so, as i said, i going to East Coast for the Outing! Ya la! Need to walk la, why? Oh ya, because i dunno how cycle >< Opps, i take alot of courage to say that okay?! Its fun walking also. Not funny about it, everyone walks so why i need cycle... Hope its gonna be fun but i can guarantee it will be super tiring.

P.S. I'm excited and afraid that i cant go.):

Boring Boring :O

Im currently at Queenie's house. Hahahaha. Just have fun here la, cannot meh. XD Yesterday was with Dionne and Queenie. We went to Outram open house together, its fun but tiring... Post some pictures now, enjoy <3















Thats all for now. KK, Byeeee. Continued stalking (:

6 comfirm choices (:

With 190 my choices are,

1. Yuying Secondary
2. Outram Secondary
3. Bendemeer Secondary
4. Guangyang Secondary
5. Whitley Secondary
6. Balestier Secondary

Seriously, its like nobody going to Yuying with me. But its okay, cant force them also right?(: Totally understand. Im kinda excited to go to Secondary! New School, but im seriously going to miss Hongwen too. Will always remember Hongwen! Going back to School for every EVENT!!!! :D

Mixing with Bad Companies

I didn't even mix with Bad People! Don't go around saying i did!

So what if,
My friends smoke? That wouldn't prove anything that i would smoke.

My friends are bad? Doesn't mean people are bad there is no good side of them.

My friends are lousy at studies? Everyone are bad at studies, i believe in my friends some day they would be better!

My friends say bad words? Even guai kia say bad words now la. Even ME!


My grandmother told my parents to take good care of me. Shut up la, Bitch. They took good care of me okay, get 190 doesn't mean i mix with bad people. I still can go express mah. Knn, don't like people judging my friends. One day, just one day, i would proof my parents that my friend aren't that bad as he think. Just watch daddy. Watch.

P.S. Im bad too (:

Fucker. I don't want leave you la.

We're going to different Secondary School! Bullshit D: I really cant bear leaving him! Its like there alot of chances we can break anytime. 2 more days, our 1 month anniversary would be here. Is that how far we can last? We might break right?

Its sucks when this happen. Our score are like so far, very far. I really don't want my score to be higher! I want lower): I want go Outram, but families disagree. Outram so bad meh? If i go Outram i don't mind going Express... I'm in same School as you, I'm already very happy. But i cant, its seem like you cant change to Yuying just for me eh... Its okay, i understand):

We are kinda like the only couple which would not be going to the same School, which sucks. Dionne and Marcus are going to the same School, in fact, all of their choices are the same. Darryl and Queenie are going to the same School, Gms. Talia and Meekia also, Gms. But ours are so much different... Why must i be so smart?): Cant my IQ just go lower? I'm confused... Whether i should follow friends or Boyfriend? I at a very difficult spot right now... T-T

P.S. I regret saying i love my score. The truth is I HATE IT

You Rock My Life ♡

Yesterday, Me, Dionne, Queenie, DionLong, Talia, Ivan, Meekia, Marcus, Darryl, Alex, Lester, Tengwei and yenzhuang went out to watch Movie, TinTin (:

It was great! During the Movie, couples sit together la, Derh :D Half way through the movie, he put his arms around me! Omg! :D ♡♡ Hahaha! Loveyou Darling :3 When the movie end, its the end then. I didn't want the Movie end one lor. Fuck ): LOL. In the end, my head and my body super pain, because i was leaning to him. But its like so worth la. I don't mind if my body was pain. Hahaha! It Rock ♡

By the way hor, during the Movie right? He totally gave me a kiss XD I was shocked but i fall in love with it immediately ♡ I know you envy me la, Lols, just kiddin(:

Thats all. Keep stalking ar. (:

i will jealous de ):

It seem like you just doesn't understand.): Bullshit much, you keep making me jealous you know? It seem like you cant even feel it. Whats wrong with you Dear? Your scaring me... ): Will you forget me and run to another girl?

Sometimes, i really don't know what to do. Whether to let it go and forget (which i cant) or whether to hold it tightly (which you might think I'm irritating)... I'm really lost in the forest sometimes. Its like there is no way out, even if its sunny i can't even see anyone, just pitch dark. That feeling is scary and at that time, i would always think to myself: What trouble have i got myself into this time? Will i learn my lesson?

But unfortunately i would not, instead i would fucking repeat it again and again. And everything will go again and repeat its cycle. That feeling sucks. Sometimes, just sometimes i really wish i would wake up and get out from there and turn over a new leaf. But easier said then done. Its hard, i admit its hard. Its always hard putting a smile on your face but deep down inside its the opposite, it hard.
I really hope i don't go deep inside the forest and never come out. I wish i might able to see the light and turn over a new leaf. I really wish ):

Understand my love for you ♡

Does he understand my love for him? He must understand that i love him just the way he is, i dun love him just because he is perfect its because he just being just the way he is. He don't have to be perfect, He don't have to be smart, He don't have to be fit for me to love him. He just have to know that i love him for who he is and he will always remember that. Its hurtful if he started giving negative comments again, but its okay. I dun mind and i can't break with him just because of that. So, i told him and i reasure him that nothing would go wrong. Hope he understand my love, Being you is just what i love about you Darling. ♡

Get Well Soon ♡

He told me he caught a cold... Hope his alright.. (: Small dedication to him.

Hello, Darling! Baby miss you larhs. Have miss me anot? Must miss me ar!(: Anyways, restwell and Baby wish you get well soon k. Darling, will be strong again? Right? Next time, must bring jacket horh. Or baby will worried one leh. Understand mah? Hahaha! Okay ler la, Mushy eh XD
Baby Loves You. Muacks. XD <3

Omg! Awesome dedication :D Hope he will love it <3

Same story different action.

Just finish reading Queenie's Blog, well its really.. its like we both have the fucking same story just that we both did different action for our cure. She cut and emo. For me, i just cry... Its painful, but i just cant let it go. T^T

The picture of me and my perfect boyfriend suddenly disappeared for my eyes. Just like that, everything gone... I wanted to cut really wanna, but i cant be unfaithful to My Darling... I didn't want him to smoke too, but i just cannot put the pain in me so i had to cut but then again i cant. Im really lost and confused... X-X I rather be dead then to suffer this HUGE pain.... Cutting really make me feel better but i know i cant. Darling, will you let me cut? I know you wont, but if you would allowed me to cut i would be shocked...

I don't want to pass another day as im scared that the next day might be scaryy.... Will that happen? I really wanna knowww..

P.S. Im Confusedddd T^T

Irritating?? ):

Does he feel that im irritating? Hai.. I seriously wanna know D: Sometimes when i talk to him he doesn't really answer, is he shy or annoyed... Now, i dunno whether i should text him, what if he find me annoying...): I wanna ask him but what if he think i irritatinng and might break with me, i seriously dun want that.):

im scared... Must give him some space, but too much space isin't too good too. Yeahh.. What to do? Im lost D: Haii... I love him and i don't want to let this relationship go. Never.

P.S. Im Scared ><