Same story different action.

Just finish reading Queenie's Blog, well its really.. its like we both have the fucking same story just that we both did different action for our cure. She cut and emo. For me, i just cry... Its painful, but i just cant let it go. T^T

The picture of me and my perfect boyfriend suddenly disappeared for my eyes. Just like that, everything gone... I wanted to cut really wanna, but i cant be unfaithful to My Darling... I didn't want him to smoke too, but i just cannot put the pain in me so i had to cut but then again i cant. Im really lost and confused... X-X I rather be dead then to suffer this HUGE pain.... Cutting really make me feel better but i know i cant. Darling, will you let me cut? I know you wont, but if you would allowed me to cut i would be shocked...

I don't want to pass another day as im scared that the next day might be scaryy.... Will that happen? I really wanna knowww..

P.S. Im Confusedddd T^T