i will jealous de ):

It seem like you just doesn't understand.): Bullshit much, you keep making me jealous you know? It seem like you cant even feel it. Whats wrong with you Dear? Your scaring me... ): Will you forget me and run to another girl?

Sometimes, i really don't know what to do. Whether to let it go and forget (which i cant) or whether to hold it tightly (which you might think I'm irritating)... I'm really lost in the forest sometimes. Its like there is no way out, even if its sunny i can't even see anyone, just pitch dark. That feeling is scary and at that time, i would always think to myself: What trouble have i got myself into this time? Will i learn my lesson?

But unfortunately i would not, instead i would fucking repeat it again and again. And everything will go again and repeat its cycle. That feeling sucks. Sometimes, just sometimes i really wish i would wake up and get out from there and turn over a new leaf. But easier said then done. Its hard, i admit its hard. Its always hard putting a smile on your face but deep down inside its the opposite, it hard.
I really hope i don't go deep inside the forest and never come out. I wish i might able to see the light and turn over a new leaf. I really wish ):